from Barry Lyga’s Boy Toy

from Barry Lyga’s Boy Toy

See, forgiveness doesn’t happen all at once. It’s not an event – it’s a process. Forgiveness happens while you’re asleep, while you’re dreaming, while you’re in line at the coffee shop, while you’re showering, eating, farting, jerking off. It happens in the back of your mind, and then one day you realize that you don’t hate the person anymore, that your anger has gone away somewhere. And you understand. You’ve forgiven them. You don’t know how or why. It sneaked up on you. It happened in the small spaces between thoughts and in the second between ideas and blink. That’s where forgiveness happens. Because anger and hatred, when left unfed, bleed away like air from a punctured tire, over time and days and years.

Forgiveness is stealth.

At least, that’s what I hope.

                              from pp. 228-229 of Boy Toy, by Barry Lyga, Graphia, 2007.

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